shinyglorchan

Okay. Emotional breakdown. Joy. Can't cry when I want to. Damn. And I was just told the guy I like isn't a virgin. I REALLY DIDN'T NEED TO KNOW THAT!!! *coughing fit* I have enough problems without having to wrap my mind around that thought. The person who told me he wasn't one, could have least told me who the hell she was!! Now I'm curious as hell and there's no way I could get this information.

GAH! I hate this. I hate crushes and I hate feeling this way. AND I HATE THAT I'M BEING AVOIDED! Even if it's only a little. He might even notice, but I know that on some level he's avoiding me and it's driving me insane!!! Tomorrow by the way is going to be fun. And when I say fun I mean fun like a root canal. (I've had one, they are one of the most painful things in the world)

Yes, I'm comparing being in the same room as my crush for an hour or so to a root canal. You wanna know why? Because I'm planning to face him tomorrow and get the rejection over with. Doesn't mean is I'm not gonna chicken out at the last minute and run away like the fucking coward I am though...

Why do I have to go through all this shit? My grades kinda suck right now, I feel like shit because this goddamned cough won't go the fuck away, and I'm an emotional trainwreck over a guy who has done absolutely nothing to cause it other then get a girlfriend and live and breath. This my own fault since I didn't do enough during the summer to show I wanted to be his girlfriend.

Okay enough of that. I'll shut up and go to xanga to rant about bitchy teacher stuff.